I woke up in a pretty cliche manor by thinking "ugh. I don't want to go to school" but it turns out i actually really thought out what I was doing today. I sometimes think it's fun to schedule things as keep a reminder in my head on what to do, even if it's as simple as taking out the trash.
I could remember when sitting in math class today, I was trying to take some more direct notes and trying what fits best for me. It seems so far I can have a chance on passing my upcoming math test as the test was scheduled for next week. Inside me I semi jump with joy, as now I can study and review to take full advantage of the ugly math test coming up.
After class I was driving home from school and thinking what is next on my list. I was thinking on buying new in ear headphones that I can use for playing drums live. But I was also planning to slide in a short long distance run. I decided to run when I get home, and then shower up when I come back. I stayed home a little bit longer cause I decided to eat and replenish the calories I burnt after a quick 4 mile run.
By the time I was ready to leave my house I remembered I have to to submit my photos for my photo class, but I did not need to worry since I shot them last week. So after I drove to guitar center to buy my in ear headphones, I started driving to school. Usually I drive with music in my truck, but I haven't driven with music in a few days. On my drive to school I was really reflecting myself and seeing the portrait I really am. It makes me a little depressed to even get this out but I still think I have Two faces. A true face and a face of lies. Because I've had a fair share of lying in the past. But one thing I did recognize is that if the truth is told, you won't have to worry much about it anymore.
By the time I got to school for my photo class, I got in, submitted my pictures, and had to sit through a 2 1/2 hour lecture. I've never really payed attention to lectures. I think the more enthusiasm and energy teachers have it can gain more attention from me. So I was already feeling down from the past 40 minutes and I decided I wanted to talk to some of my brony friends online. I started to pull out my emotions and bad thoughts out of my head and talk to a person I've been getting to know better online. it really helps to share my thoughts and my problems out to others or even putting them in a blog. Because by the time the lecture was over, I came out of that classroom happy and free minded.
As a future goal I hope to not live a separate image of lies and hypocrisy and keep my true self out in the great wide open.
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